Completely shattered....

This song rang up to my ears...

Last Christmas I gave you my heart.... the very next day you gave it away...
This year to save me from tears.. I gave it to someone special..

Think... I will have to add on more lines

This year the same thing happens.... My heart is completely shattered...

Can't believe i'm crying now... its happening again.... i think i surely dunno why should i be so upset...

Last year I'd lost my bf... I moved on.....
This guy ...another guy.... all the long in my life for 1 1/2 years.... he have been talkin to me... company mi... i do feel touched... but not putting in any feelings for him... I feel bad... but i had to... coz i dun wanna hurt myself....

well.. frankly.... he isn't the kind of tea i go for...
But ... he is a gentle guy... always listens to me... he tired to be patient to mi... (haha... i do hav missy temper) .. overall... i do feel comfortable... not like any other guys gave mi...

I gave in ba.. started to like every moment every word.. storys goes on again... haha...
one day he suddenly say he wans to remain friends....

I had no choice... i have to draw back.. i dun wanna be seen as i'm a slut that i need to hold on ... and beg... I have been left with no choice.... he didn't gave mi options... or even hear what i gotta say...

I wanna say its too late.... why now then say... when i am totally in love ... and now i can't... jus can't stop liao...

worse is i dunno how to hate him...

i notice his msn msg... i know... he found another ger....
"my love for you for a day bla bla bla"
today's msg is "still love you"

i know... those aren't meant for mi... but these words are driving mi insane...

This christmas is terrible.... i dun have any wonderful gift.... jus more and more hurting....
how much hurt can i take.... before i can really gif up on him.... i really dunno....

Merry christmas 2007....